Love In The Ice * Special Jaejoong* English by : Zein

well this morning is really beautiful!! today our Hero Jaejoong Oppa
was just 25th. the adult age. more handsome and get more a lot of love
from the girls throughout the world.
as promised, today Yurika staff will send a special fanfic Jaejoong.
this fanfic made specially for the day of his birthday from eomma TVXQ.
fanfic written by my own direct Yurika Nakayama (he_a), and translated
by the translator we Mursyidah Zein (ze_in). so! now please enjoy the
story.

Love In The Ice
Huft .... I’m so happy ... finally after all this time I did not go to
this place I could finally go back and enjoy the panoramic beauty that
lies in Chungnam. The city is beautiful ..., and many unforgettable
memories. I remember almost 16 years ago I lived here. nothing has
changed. The trees that stood firm at the crossroads and some of my
favorite cake vendor still standing there. I think I can re-remember my
childhood days here.
This place is the most important place in my life. This is where I was
born, and this is where I got my first love and best friend too. I am
Sunny, 23-year-old girl who was born in Chungnam and have lots of love.
I had already left this town for more than 15 years ago but the
memories created there remain in my heart.
I remember when I was 8 years old, I had a friend named Kim Jaejoong.
he was beautiful even more beautiful than me. But do not get me wrong
he's a great man I ever knew. He's my best friend. I knew him better
than anyone else. Well ..., sometimes he looks very fragile but I know
he's the strongest man I ever knew.
The story of his life has always been my spotlight. I remember when he
encouraged me. At the time I just lost my amma. The words that I never
forget until this very moment is.
"Do not be sad. Although now your amma has gone you still have Appa. I
just can live happily. I know I'm not the biological children of my
Amma ... but I love my Amma and Appa. They are very kind. Besides, I
have eight older sisters who love and being nice to me. So, why do I
have to be sadly. They are my family. "
I keep Jaejoong's words as a way of life, that even such a small child
could think up. Especially now I've grown into a woman.
I must be strong and tough like him. I remember he always made me
smile. Whenever I felt lonely he would regale me with his singing.
Taught me to sing and dance. .. Well, he's talented. Once before I go
and leave him in this town he promised that he would be a great singer.
He promised that he would continue to encourage and make me happy with
his singing. And now he has succeeded. He not only made me happy but he
also has to make happy all of his fans around the world
I know now Jaejoong has become a great singer with the group
DongBangShinKinya. I'm happy but also upset. I do not know every time I
saw thousands of women screaming for his name, my heart felt a little
cut. Maybe I'm just not willing to give my Jaejoong to others. But
anyway, he's not my little Jaejoong anymore. He belongs to all who
loved him. That's why I realized that my decision in 15 years ago was
right. When I left him without a word. When I went away. Given all of
that will only make me feel even more uncomfortable.
I looked again to the corners of my town that is now bustling. I'm glad
there are a lot of progress here. Transport began to support and much
more. I took my suitcase and other bags carried by the taxi driver who
brought me back to my old house.
I went in and pay the taxi. My house is clean because there are helpers
who cared for him. I saw every side of my house. Nothing changed. I
smiled again and went into my room. My room was big once, but now it
looks small. These very different room with my room in Canada. Well ..
It is much, with a Korean accent shows so special about Korean.
I put my things on the side of the room. I'm around my room and saw the
pictures of my childhood are still arranged neatly on the tables. I
took one of them and laughed a little when I saw a picture of a smiling
jaejoong said, patting my shoulder.
It was a beautiful memory. Where could I forget. The sun was setting
and now it is time for me to rest. Tomorrow there will be a lot of
things waiting for me to do. In addition to greet neighbors and I also
have to find a job.
This morning was different. Well .., at the Korean winter is slightly
different from in Canada. But I loved it. Here I can eat Hotteok.
Hotteok are snacks that can warm the body. I remember when we were
still in elementary school, he often taught me to cook Hotteok. But
until this moment I still can not make it. I remember Jaejoong often
said that I was not much more talented in terms of cooking. And it's
true.
After breakfast I took my coat and covered my head with a hat to feel
warmer. I wear my gloves and I took my scarf.
This is my first morning here. I should have to be happy, but I do not
know there was a sense of fear swept over me. I left the house and shut
the door lies behind. I saw many children who play snowball around the
house. Looks cute. It reminded me of my childhood.
I started walking down the snow-covered streets. I still feel cold
every winter wind blew and made a little coat dripping wet with snow.
Suddenly, someone looking to run up to me. I do not know who she is but
I'm sure she ran towards me.
"Annyeong." she said, she saluted and bowed to me.
I bowed back to him. I think he's a few years older than me
"Are you Sunny?" she asked again.
"Ne ..., Mianhe, who are you?" I asked trying to cover my confusion.
"You forget me? Oh god you look beautiful today! I’m Joogie’s noona! Do
you remember? long ago, I often take you to play. "She looked very
enthusiastic and that made me remember her. I remember the laughter!
Well!she was right, she’s Joogie’s Noona!
"Unnie! Mianhe .. hahaha, I was not able to recognize you ... "
"Well .., forget it. Why are you here? What your parents back? "
"Appa is in Canada. I came home after college because I want to work
here. I'd much rather be here. "
She smiled again and looked she was still looking at me furtively.
"Unnie why? Something wrong? "I caught her
"Ah .., no I just can not believe you're as beautiful now."
Those words make my face red. I was embarrassed and did not know what
to say now.
"Oh yes! I forgot! Joogie at home now. He came home to celebrate his
birthday. Well .. in fact he is busy, you know who is he now. But
because these days he is often sick, Eomma forced him to go home to
rest.
Ha?? Jaejoong is here! Gosh! He's really here! I miss him! I very want
to meet him! But will he still remember me?
"Come with me. You should see him now! He looks taller than the should
be! You remember when he was very short! Hahaha! I remember it clearly!
Come with me. Amma would love to see you! "
I can not refuse or argue. I just think and walk beside him. I do not
know what to do. My heart kept pounding! Why? What is happening to me?
Could this be the same feeling when I left him? Or there are other
feelings? What if he does not remember me?
Distance of 100 meters which should not far away, now seemed more
distant than it should. I'm afraid that every step that I passed it
will take me to lose who I am. I was afraid to be. I'm confused what
should be in front of him. He is no longer the old Jaejoong, he's
changed.
Finally I stopped my steps in this house. The house that I used to
visit. I heard jaejoong's umma yelled to one of jaejoong's noona. I was
so amused themselves. It turned out that aunty was still the same. Very
enthusiastic and excited.
I went along with the unnie. There was a sense of shame and fear but I
kept trying to cover it up. Until I saw him down the stairs and paused
as he looked at me. Footsteps stopped and I was stunned. I do not know
how the expression on my face right now but I saw she was silent. There
was no expression on his handsome face. I'm still looking at her until
my aunt was surprised to see me.
"You ..., oh my. How are you?? Long time you did not come home? "She
looks very happy and he hugged me. Auntie Auntie always regarded me as
a child and me too, i regarded her as my amma.
"Let's go inside. See your face so pale! Come off your coat. Sungmo
soup will cook for you. Come on kid .. "I think and I saw Jaejoong has
moved into the living room. I followed and sat beside a warm fireplace
with a glass of hot chocolate in my hand. Jaejoong was staring at me,
he makes me so embarrassed.
"How are you?" We said together. We laughed a little. We realized there
was something that made us act weird.
"Want to go with me?" jaejoong ask suddenly. I was shocked, and before
I answered he pulled me and put my coat
"Amma, we go!" Jaejoong shouted.
Sungmo had not yet responded, we were walking in the streets still full
of children
Jaejoong walked beside me. He looked very different. I so wanted to
laugh but I can not. There was a strange feeling that hit me. He's much
taller than me. his hair dyed honeyblonde, and it made her look
different.
He did not say anything. Until finally we stood on the quiet enough
bridge. No children here, only a few pedestrians who passed this way. I
was silent and he was also silent. We are standing on this bridge and
he saw the way down. The Water below freezing, and I know, it should
be. I'm so confused, what to say?
"How are you?" My words were clumsy but Jaejoong remained silent. This
made me even more confused. He still saw the reflection of frozen
water.
"I've seen you on Tv and in several magazines. You're much different
now. You know, I was shocked when my friend said that you passed the
audition, and now you're a great singer. "
He was still silent but now he's watching me. I'm getting embarrassed,
but his eyes continued to see me.
"I do not think I could meet you here. Are not you usually stay in
Japan? I knew it from the magazine that I read. "
He was still staring at me until finally she approached. "Why are you
back?" The words were piercing my heart. I do not know why he asked her
about it. But from his voice tone, there's something bothering him
"Why did you come back! Once you left me alone! You left without saying
anything. You go, without a word. And without explanation. You know,
for years I was looking for you! "He suddenly shouted at me. I've never
seen this rough Jaejoong. I see there is something in her eyes. His
black eyes looked dark and sad. There was anger there, but there's more
that makes me even more not understand..
"Sorry .., I ..., I left without saying anything. But I did it so I can
go. If I saw you, I'm sure I will not be able to go. You know I do not
want to go, but my parents ... "
"Please ..." the words stopped me. "You did not send me a letter. Every
day I hope you send me a letter. Every day of my birthday and every new
year celebrations. You never sent me a greeting card. You've forgotten
about me. right? "Jaejoong looked very shocked. I can understand his
feelings, but my heart still can not believe it.
"You know, every time I go to Canada, I'm always looking for you. But
all in vain. Nothing found. You left without saying where you're going
to stay. You know, you're making me crazy! "He shouted again. My heart
ached to hear every word he spoke. Ach but also happy.
"I'm sorry .. I thought you forget me. I saw you on stage and you
looked so happy. I really do not think that you'll think of me. I was
just your past. "My words were made Jaejoong subsude He's getting
closer to me.
"Do you think I'll forget our promise! I promise that I'll always be
beside you, but you do not believe me?! "
I was silent again, and my tears flowed. I dunno, what tears it.
Longing or joy? I do not understand.
"Sorry, I did not expect. But one thing you should know, I'm always
around you. I'm your fans. Since you debut, I've always been your loyal
fans. I collected all the things about you. I also always attend all of
your concerts.
Jaejoong looked at me in disbelief, but now I want him to hear it all.
"You know, I'm always there by your side. When you go to Canada with
Kim Hyun Joong, you know, I was at the airport with all of your fans.
I'm waiting for you there. But you passed me, without seeing me. From
that moment I realized that we are different. You're not old Jaejoong.
You're not my Joogie! You belong to those girls! "
The tears flowed, but I'm satisfied. "You look very happy with your new
life. And it also makes me happy. I know maybe you really have
forgotten about me. I realize who I am! I do not deserve you! Because
of that I never call you. "
Jaejoong looked hard at me. And I continued to pour all my heart to him
and suddenly he gave me something I never imagined before. He kissed me
and I felt something in my blood flowing. Tendon damage all my nerves.
I'm suffocating. I can feel when he spilled all his feelings. a few
seconds ----- ( we took off homesickness/ we were off the longing )
------ and he finally letting off the kiss and hug me.
"I’m sorry ..., I do not know that you are also suffering like me."
Jaejoong words made me even more crying. My heart was relieved. he
hugged me tightly and I know, I love him. "I was your Joogie and will
be your Joogie forever. You have to remember that. "I laughed in his
arms and the winter winds blow again. But I feel warm because there is
Jaejoong beside me and now he hugged me and will always protect me.
End ~ ~