Memories Of You Eng by : Zein

Memories of u

I stared at the blue sea that stretched in front of me. The roar of the waves were sweeping all my feelings right now. I sat on the beach with a glass of hot chocolate in my hand. My mind was spinning, the memories kept covering me. I remember just in the spring of last year, someone save me from death on this beach. The most special person to me. Someone who successfully made me realize, how precious my life.
I smiled weakly. The memories that have been covering me throughout the year. Today, a year has passed and I'm still sitting here. Waiting and hoping he would back. I know it is almost impossible. I know everything I hoped is in vain. Four seasons have passed with the hope that continues to exist in my heart. But now, I realized that everything was worth it. He's not coming back. He would never come back. maybe I'm the most stupid person, because I believe that miracles will occasionally take him to come to me. But until this moment, it does not happen.
This is my last day in this town. Tomorrow morning I'll go. I'll go and leave all the memories and hopes in this beach. Everything will buried deep down in my heart.
I closed my eyes and all the memories come back. It all started in the spring of last year. At the time I just lost the most precious person in my life. And it was all my fault!! my parents died when they tried to save me! my parents were shot by the kidnappers who abducted me. They shot my parents right in front of me. That genesis was always making me feel guilty. I kept blaming myself!
In the afternoon in the spring of that year, I intend to break the contract on my life to god at this beach. I really do not know what to do. What I’m thinking about is how do I get to see my parents in heaven. My feet take me walking into the sea and the sea slowly began to sweep my body. The roar of the surf was like going to swallow me. I know this is wrong, but I really do not want to live alone. When the sea was almost drowned me, someone pulls me up. He tried to save me but I rebelled. He took my hand firmly and finally he managed to take me back to the beach.
"You're crazy! What are you doing??!!! "He shouted. I'm angry! I was really mad at him! Why is he out of this! Why did he stop me!
"You could die!" He shouted again. The words pierced my heart and I looked up at him. The sea makes me a little shiver, but I still have the strength to survive now. "Do not interfere! You! Why did you stop me! "I yelled. He looked at me amazed and I was really can not say anything now. He was still staring at me intently.
"You ..., but why? Why are you doing this ???!!!" he keep asking me questions, but I can not answer. I'm confused! I do not know what to say to him?! I do not know!
"It's all my fault ..." the words spilling out. I saw he was paying attention to every word I say.
"... My parents, they were killed in front of my eyes and all is my fault!" my screams managed to drown the roar of the waves behind me. I know I should not have said this to him. He walked toward me. He tried to calm me down, but I kept screaming and crying hysterically. My words spilling out. I can not dam up all over again now. It all spilled and it makes me feel a little relieved. I kept yelling at him and suddenly something made me unable to speak. He ... he kissed me. I stopped and my tears stopped flowing. When such a stop. he kissed me gently and I felt he was trying to understand my situation. For a moment I felt comfortable, until I finally realized. I'm realize of what is happening right now. I open my eyes and pushed him away from me. I cried again and I hit him directly. The blow was not strong, but enough to vent my anger at him. I saw he was shocked and immediately I went left him behind.
The memory will never be I forgot. Since then, I tried to understand one thing. Life is beautiful. And I know, that my parents know that I did something stupid and they would be disappointed in me. Since then, I was trying to strong. Every night, the shadow haunts me and it made me realize about one thing. Someone who saved me was him. One of the music idol in asia that I know. Xiah Junsu from DBSK, who worshiped many people. And stupid me, I've fallen in love with him. I've fallen in love with someone who adored millions of women around the world. Everything makes me realize that he would not come back. As it is an extraordinary coincidence for me, because I could meet him. and the coincidence will never happen again.
The sun began to sink. I know, it's time to go home. I walked with a limp left the empty beach. I walked slowly without looking at the road in front of me. I am a coward, because I did not dare look at my future, but I also do not want to look back, because I know I might not be able to go if I kept looking back. This sand was warm on my feet. I know they'll take me to the reality of life that has been waiting for me. I wanted to cry but since that time, these tears are no longer dripping. I kept walking slowly until I hit someone in front of me. I almost fell but he held me. Someone hold me so I did not fall, and finally I saw someone who I hit.
My eyes fixed on the person standing in front of me. I froze, my eyes could not stop staring at him. My blood was boiling and my heart pumped the blood flowing two times faster than usual. He smiled at me and I still look at him without any expression. I was really surprised and not believe in what I saw. Miracle was really real. Now he stood in front of me and he smiled at me. I know it was real and not a dream.
Finally, the tears flowed again. I was crying, but this is a tears of joy. I spontaneously hugged him. And he also hugged me tightly. I know this is crazy, but this really happened. I'm ... I'm so happy.
"Why are you always crying in front of me?" He said. I do not know what to do, but I still hugged him tightly,
"Finally I found you." he whispered to me. I increasingly do not believe everything I hear.
"I've always wanted to see you, but I never can do that. Since then, you always filled my mind. "His words made me feel that nothing else can make me cry.
"Promise me to not cry except in front of me. Because now you're not alone. I'll be here for you. "Slowly he released his hug. I just nodded and he smiled. Again he came over and ..., he kissed me for a second time. This time it feels different. Everything seemed so beautiful. The memories flashed back in my mind but its all seemed so beautiful. And now I know one thing, that he has fallen in love with me when the first he met me. Just like me.
"By the way, what's your name?" his words made me laugh. He also laughed and we laughed at ourselves. He was still laughing but I looked at him lovingly, "Arisa. I’m Arisa. "
Junsu laughed again, and he hugged me tightly for the umpteenth time. The roar of the waves helped celebrate this moment. As if they can feel our feelings. From now on, I'll make sure that this beach will witness our love forever.